I am drowning into the depths,
into darkness,
into nothingness.
I am alone.
Completely alone.
There is no one.
No one who loves me,
no one to whom I matter.
I am completely alone.
Abandoned.
Lost.
I AM NOTHING!
I AM NOTHING!
I AM NOTHING!
it echoes within me.
Into the pain,
into the despair,
into this primal fear,
I let myself fall.
Rejection.
Loneliness.
Non-existence.
*because I am not worthy*
BAM! Now it is revealed!
I cry, sob, my whole body trembles.
More pain floods me
and I – surrender.
At last.
I lose all sense of time,
I sink deeper and deeper
-am I dissolving…?
– – –
After a while,
maybe an eternity,
the weeping fades,
I calm.
Still existing,
at the bottom of everything,
still dark – inside and out.
Then,
a light appears
and takes shape.
Emerging from this light,
blackness yields to deep red:
A glowing seed
in a womb
materializes.
Peace settles in my body.
Words form within me.
If I am NOTHING,
then I can be EVERYTHING.
WOW! I take a breathe.
In the deepest loneliness, there was immense freedom!
Now I am released to become whoever I choose to be.
Carolin Weise
Hej, ich bin Lili, wie Licht & Liebe ✨💖
Mein Blog heißt zwar My Rosegarden, ist aber auch so was wie eine Spielwiese, auf der ich mich so richtig austoben kann.
Hier findest du alle Themen und Textarten, die mir am Herzen liegen. Es geht also viel um Biografisches und um gesellschaftlich relevante Themen, denn ich glaube daran, dass Veränderung beginnt, wenn wir uns selbst besser verstehen und unser Potenzial entdecken.
Schau doch gerne auch mal bei empathyforfuture.de vorbei, da siehst du, wie ich arbeite. Für Vernetzung, Kooperationen und Anfragen bin ich immer offen, melde dich gerne.
Und jetzt noch ganz viel Spaß beim Stöbern!
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Hey, I’m Lili, like Licht und Liebe (Light & Love) ✨💖
My blog is called My Rosegarden, but it’s also like a playground where I can truly express myself.
Here you’ll find all the topics and types of writing that are close to my heart. So, it's a lot about biographical reflections and socially relevant topics, because I believe that change begins when we better understand ourselves and discover our potential.
Feel free to also check out empathyforfuture.de to see how I work. I’m always open to networking, collaborations, and inquiries – don’t hesitate to reach out.
And now, enjoy exploring!